Solitary

One word that runs through the back of my head
(Solitary)
It feels like I’m dead
Always waiting for the better part
Not knowing if she’ll ever open my heart

Drifting further away from you
(Solitary)
You feel it too?
Never able to prove my best
A vacuum-filled journey through the ultimate test

And as I change my ways
I tend to set things ablaze

Pierce me and open my heart you’ll find
A better person in a new state of mind
(Solitary)
It feels like a curse
Give me the answer to a life in reverse

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Thursday, January 29, 2009

Souls Apart

A twisted mind, a total failure
Useless, incompetent, dishonored invader
Can't get enough of tragic feelings
All that I was has lost it's meanings

My Lord, Creator, Light and Ease
I wan't my sanity, I'm on my knees

A fool I have been, an optimist I was
Ignored reality, lost to it's cause
Now I must suffer, now I am gone
A fading liar who wakes up alone

Wanted love but could not see
Thought I was unbreakable, but this is killing me

But who am I to fool, who am I to blame?
Been through this before, yes it's always the same
For am I dark, and have I no heart?
Oblivious to the past, are we souls apart?

The clock is ticking, my life reverts
I'll choose my ending, although it hurts

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

The Long Road To Nothingness

A path to crawl was carved out for me
Against my will I was chosen to be
Someone vague, a shrouded mystery
Like a fading ideal, lost in history
I tried to dissolve this mess
Lost my focus on times of success

A bottle in my hand and a pen in the other
Some lines of comfort I start to discover
But the ink on my paper begins to blur
Cause the tears in my eyes starts to occur
I say there is no freedom left
Higher powers, the perfect theft

What will I do, should I yield to this plot?
Accept my fate and take this shot?
To forever be, alone in this world
Even if though, the fear takes hold?
I tried to dissolve this mess
All I have, is times of distress

So many questions I feel there's no answer
Radiation within, an un-earthly cancer
O how I envy the birds of the sky
When downfall hits, I could just fly
To you, my dear, I miss you so
O why did you ever have to go?

This feeling can never dissolve, the clouds is such a weight
I give my life to the one, who sets my heart straight...

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

Betraying Light

I jump the highest mountains, I crave for the extreme
From darken depths of subsistence, a labourious controlled scream
I welcome you to my world, I'll take you on a ride
There is no reason for me, to hold you back my pride
Ripping the shining stars, I live for the abundant presence
Regaining my corrupt sanity, lost in betrayed existance

I am the trees of the distant field
I am what I have revealed

But then I leave my throne
Take my sword and crown
Like darkest hordes of dust
I give into my lust
A sudden change of tide
My mind will slowly sublide

The deepest place in my heart
Will make hell seem celestial in comparison

Stuck in this emotional human state of mind
You thaught me nothing, but made me blind
My scars go deep, my past is no lie
In the beginning no feelings, I could not cry
The touch of 'freedom', the rotten smell
My heart was in bloom, but you couldn't tell

You are here beside me, your eyes as cold as snow
You've lost that spark and love, your enchanting little glow

I leave for the shores where I once was light
To forever be like the darkest night
Collecting fragments of scattered dreams
I sail away from the earthly schemes
Filled with a scent of human relief
As you lay under my boat, tied beneath

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Saturday, April 04, 2009

Seeds of Love

In bright lights of true clarity, her steps is set before her
And floating rivers of shadows, will soon be blown away
Her lips like wildest berries, her tounge a living proof
That perfect sweetness still exists, and women are a need

So take me to your temple, make me all complete
We need no longer be afraid, to show the world this heat

The forest echoes out my name, In gardens I am walking
Desperation has been blown away, I live my life at last
And so I leave my past behind, to promise you my full
I kiss you gentle, give you love, so I can see you smile

Promise me another day, never go away
I'll wait for you if that's how it is, this time we'll swim in bliss

Your garment tells of dreams and hope, and I would be a fool
To misintepret your ideas, and to overlook your glance
Best as I can move my feets, a sunny dawn arise
Slips into my tranquil hands, you feel the same as us

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Sunday, August 02, 2009

Parasitism

With a fast engulfing nocturnal, I took the halo from my head
Bent in the wrong directions, when my sanity numbingly fled
As the rivers of shaking andromeda invaded, I kept a silent scream
To resurrect this promise, to disarm a falling dream

I run the distant fields, a mantle to cover my ears
Stuck in a whispering void, as you climb beside my fears
Taking the hand of the newly attended, a lacuna between my eyes
With helpless laments I bend to the will, release my distortive lies

Amid the thorns I sell my pride, a nuclear waste at best
Bio fitness thaught to the mass, parasitism you hide
I fall, I stumble, I crave, I hunger, I leave my past behind
So take me to your comfort zone, since my eyes are forever blind.

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Sunday, May 10, 2009

Pseudo

In silent dorms it hides
On distant thoughts it divides
Like a malignant pulse through the night
The level of my fear is alight
Dives into your soaking sheets
Flesh and magma sorely meets

Mares are gruesome, cries are in vain
Why are you here? There is nothing to gain
Me? I'm nobody, but who are you?
Mineral glitter, fake, but true

Cast into vulturous storms, I see
Prosperous cities, ceased to be
How can you say it with such a glee?
The mark on my chest is a guarantee
Immensely strokes of a dull transaction
Leaves me longing for my sweet reflection
That's when I get it, I figure it out
The sorrow and pain that life is about

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Monday, June 15, 2009